This month marks one year since a doctor discovered my cancer, so I guess it’s fitting that the post-treatment wait-and-see is a return to that in-between void that was November 2019 to March 2020: an infinite space of no-answers-only-questions and we-can’t-be-sures where all I needed to know was what type of cancer it was, whatContinue reading “Cancerversary”
Tag Archives: treatment
Radiation
Radiotherapy is done. One more mile marker in the rearview. One more thing to recover from. Though chemo was easier than I expected, radiation was harder than I expected. Both my medical and radiation oncology teams have been great, and I felt like I was in good hands during both, so that wasn’t the reason.Continue reading “Radiation”
Milestones
“Damn the things we must survive to survive.” –Pat Parker to Audre Lorde in a letter dated January 4, 1988, from Sister Love: The Letters of Audre Lorde and Pat Parker 1974-1989 It’s mid-August, and I’m done with chemo. I feel like I have enough distance from my last cycle to look back on thatContinue reading “Milestones”
Scars
Today, I’m appreciating the resilience of this body as well as its vulnerability. It’s day 11 of my first cycle of chemo. The bone pain from my Neulasta shot has faded. The nausea is gone. Despite the anemia, I have more energy than I have in a long, long time. I still have my hair,Continue reading “Scars”
The Final Silence: Cancer Walks 